A Direction, A Hope, A Purpose, A Resolution, A Will

This is me

This is me

For the past year most of you would have only seen a photo of the back of my head. So I decided that with the new year, I would show you me in all my gory detail. Love instagram for having the ability to hide those imperfections.

I was born in 1977, raised in the UK. March 2003 I had my first daughter, and April that year I got married. In 2006 we decided to move to Australia. July 2008 I gave birth (after having 3 miscarriages in-between) to my 2nd daughter – and our first generation Aussie.

For most the new year brings about resolutions most of which will be broken by the end of January. I have made no resolutions, but have decided on some changes that need to be made, not just for the new year, but for life.

With some technical issues with my health last year, I have to continue my path to a better body. Mentally, physically, and spiritually. With exercise, healthy-ish eating (I can’t give up chocolate), and some time for me.

In the last few months I have been tinkering with homemade cleaning products, as I would like to cut down on the amount of chemicals. I’ve also managed to make a dog shampoo (ironic that I don’t own a dog). This shampoo has had great results, and so looking at other things I can do – detangler for you long hair dogs, and the baking continues with dog treats for bad breath.

Sample bottles - Dog Shampoo and Flea deterrent for pet beds

Sample bottles – Dog Shampoo and Flea deterrent for pet beds

The dog products require little physical effort, unlike the cakes. For me to go in this direction, there’ll be lots more planning, study and work. I don’t want to screw this up by not doing the appropriate research first.

I considered stopping the cakes. I’ve no formal training, I spend most of my time winging it, and there is the obligatory amount of self-doubt. They can take up lots of time, and you just know as soon as it comes to decorating my 2 daughters always kick off!

I have had to cut back, but have decided not to stop the cakes.

The thing is I love to make things, whether it’s cakes, general cooking, knitting (image below), cross stitch, crochet, other crafts, making the cleaning and pet products. I even have a recipe for anti wrinkle cream – yet to test. I just need to find a way to merge these all together. I need a business plan, I need a name, worked for Martha Stewart, why not me?

Work in progress - entrelac knitted cot blanket

Work in progress – entrelac knitted cot blanket. 3.75mm needles. 4ply 100% merino wool.

I have a book of my recipes for cleaning and other tips & tricks, which my eldest daughters jokingly calls my witches brews.

I come from a crafty family, my Grandad was an artist, my Dad is an artist, my brother’s art work can be seen in Sydney – his next show is in February. My Mum still does arts and crafts after running a playschool in the UK with her Granddaughters.

I have a purpose, a hope, a direction, a resolution, and a will to make this work, I just need that one sign or signal into how to make it all work together.

So there will be changes abound, which I for one am looking forward to. I am not going to sit on my arse and waiting for those changes, I will be making it happen.

Phoenix henna tattoo on my hand.

Phoenix henna tattoo on my hand.

Like the Phoenix henna tattoo I had done recently. From the death of old the phoenix obtains new life by arising from the ashes. And that’s exactly what I plan to do from the ashes of 2012.